cognitive lessons are real pain in the ass
what's up with learning the use of metaphor?
so that we can learn how to structure more constructive sentences?
that in one way or another is moving one big round to shoot someone
or is it cool to speak in riddle and let people guess what's on your mind?
what's the use of having such lectures when we don't even use it?

but then again
why am i whining about this?
the lesson already ended like half a day ago
and i'm still here pissed off with the lesson
i don't know what's got into me nowadays
everything just seems not right

i literally scream at my youngest brother to shut the fuck up
before i screw him upside down
yes, that's exactly what i said
i don't know why i feel so annoyed by him
even though i kept telling myself that he's just 12
and i should just close 1 ear when he talks
but for some particular reason
i'm pretty pissed off with my family

first of all
they went to buy food without asking me what i want to eat
and i'm left to eat the damn instant noodle while they enjoyed their feast

second
they couldn't even spare me a piece of chicken wing
when i know that no one is going to eat them
and hell yes,
that piece of shit is still lying on the plate on my dining table
and fcuk no,
i'm not eating that shit

third
my step-mother took away the fan even though she knew i was using
and when i'm sweating like as if its raining
she took the fan away
great!

next
everyone seems to not like washing the plates after eating
i seems to be doing the washing everytime
and this time
i'm throwing everything in the basin
let's see what's gonna happen tomorrow

lastly
i'm still damn fcuk-ing pissed



isn't there anything for me to smile about?
sometimes i just dread going to school
because people, of no reason, will just throw their tantrum at you
well to be honest
i don't really mind because they might be having a bad day
but fcuk
i'm having a bad day as well
you don't see me throwing my tantrum at you

but then again
people have different ways to "counter" bad day
throwing tantrum is definitely one of them

damn
i have to learn to control my own emotions


i'm feeling pretty unstable now
so please
don't mind me
mind your own things